Monday, March 21, 2011

Questions Questions Questions!!

What is the question that i always get these days.

"What do you do everyday now?"

I know everyone is concern about how i am doing, but i am soooo sick of this question i would just like to write it on my forehead so no one asks anymore!!

STOP giving me those "See i told you to go home" look!
It is my freaking career and who else do you think would be in a more panic state then the person herself!

Let me tell you in detail what i do on a typical day, so quit asking!!
*time and all might vary, just an approx.

7.30am Rise & Shine (if the sunlight streams into the room)
~Breakfast (consist of either french toast, cereal or boiled egg and a cup of milo)
~Surf the net or watch Sunrise with
Kochie and Mel

9.00am Job Surfing time (Crucial time of the day, my future depends on it!)
~See if any new job to apply, then apply apply apply! (Takes quite some time)
~ A lot of sneak peeks on facebook, dramacrazy....etc.. (u know what i mean)

12 noon Tummy rumbling time!

~Food hunting (either eat leftovers, meet friends, or sit at the food court and let my imagination go wild!)

2.00pm Borders time (Free books, me LOVE)/More job application/Drama time
~Depends where i am

4.00pm Habahaba!! Hot bodies here i come!
~GYM time! (If i have to cook i'll go earlier)
*For this purpose , let's say i have cooking duty.

5.30pm Cook away!
~I stir fry, boil, steam...whatever

7.00pm Dinner is served
~Nom nom nom...hmm too salty or no taste.

8.00pm Cinderella is on the job
~I'll give you a sparkly clean kitchen in an hour time!

9.00pm Mandi mandi
~A hot hot shower to end the day and looking forward to the next!

11pm++ Lights out!
~ZZzzzZZ (That's me snoring, hahah)

The end of U Sun's typical day!

As i have my e-mail alerts on my phone, i will always have to be prepared to open an e-mail which goes something like this:
"Thank you for your application for the position of Melbourne 2012 Graduate Program We appreciate your interest in XXX, and congratulate you on your achievements to date.
After careful consideration of your application, we regret to advise that due to the number of high calibre applicants and the limited number of positions available, we are unfortunately unable to proceed with your application
"

This will ruin my day and make me burn more calories in the GYM because i will go mad!
But again, i have been given prior notices by experienced seniors of this situation. So i just have to deal with it.


So if you are still in high school or uni or a job, QUIT complaining!
At least you have something that you MUST do, while i am thinking everyday what should i do today or thinking i should do this very very slowly so it kills time.



Wednesday, March 9, 2011

TIck tok Tick tok...apply apply apply!!!

I really hate writing job applications!
It takes sooooo long and the questions you are ask gives you massive headaches.

I really dislike it when they ask... what attracts you to work at XXX?
I wish i can ust type...I NEED A FREAKING JOB!!!

Arghh....

Actually i am very very worried i can't find a job.
Jobless for 3 months already.
Some friends are already working and i am still applying for jobs!

And those cover letters!! ARGH>....when will this end??

Please please please give me a job!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

@#$%^&@#

Just get married and get out of the house!!

Fu** you!!!!!!!!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

两年了

过一个星期就要两年了。
爸爸离开我们两年了。

说实话这两年来,大家也都这样过。
就好像都习惯了没有爸爸的日子。

大家都跟我说时间会医疗这个伤。
我承认,时间是能够医疗但不可能完全医疗。

葬礼那天有人问几年前失去姑丈的姑姑,要多久才会习惯呢?
姑姑就看了我们说久后会习惯但是也不可能会习惯。
当时的我觉得这答了也等于没答吗。
但是现在我懂了。

告诉你们身为女儿的到了今天还是不想听爸爸喜欢听的音乐。
听到的话会无法控制的落泪。

那身为妻子的妈妈呢?
心里的某一个角落每天都在哭泣吧!

早上醒来就看到旁边空着的床,
杯子里的牙刷也只有一个,
跑步机再也没动了。

到了办公室,
看到的同事们都一样,
为有爸爸的位子是空的。

午餐时间,
不再有亲爱的老公坐在车里说想吃什么。

到了晚上,
虽然妈妈人是在看着电视,但是看着她的眼神,
我有时后会怀疑她的"人"都不再。

爸爸的手机虽然已经很久没响,
但是妈妈每天还是带在身边。
她不时不时就会把它打开看着里面录着爸爸的video,笑。
这笑,有时后是开心的笑,有时后是含着泪的笑。

说习惯他不在我们身边了,也对,因为他的确不在。
但是也不是完全习惯,因为他还在身边。

问我怎么那么矛盾。
我.....不会解释。

问我什么时候才不会为他流泪。
我.....没有答案。

Thursday, February 10, 2011

3 months later

3 months later after graduation and i say it SUCKS!

I have lost my focus, maybe because i have no focus at all.
I have no goals to strive for.
I have no dreams that i want to achieve.

It feels like being lost in the woods.
Misty and scary.
Any direction could be the right direction but the question is which?
There is no one to tell you but for you to find out.

Yes, there might be family and friends with you in this woods, but they will only be able to guide you.
There will be times where there will be pressure and confusions involve, then you must know that they are all only trying to help you.
At the end of the day you are the one who will have to make the decision and take responsibilities for it.

Some people might already have planted a dream in their hearts that they would like to achieve.

Not for me.

I will have to start dreaming now.
To dream a dream that is impossible yet achievable.
Doesn't make sense does it.

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Feeling depress thinking about this.