The next step

*long post. If you have time read and give your comments*

I have come to the point of my life where decisions have to be made.
There are so many paths in front of me and i have to choose one and forgo the others.
The most frustrating thing is none of these paths gives me a clear sight of what is ahead.

Just like after finishing high school, the question was so where would you be furthering your studies?
To me the answer was easy - MELBOURNE
I did not really need to make choose them, it was set right in my mind in the very beginning.

After 3 years, i am finishing university.
the question is what are you going to do after uni?

The is really one of the toughest question i have ever have!


Path 1 Stay in Australia and get a PR
This is the initial path that i would most probably take. take my PR maybe work for short term and in the long term is still back to Malaysia!

Reason to stay:
1.Do not want to miss this opportunity to get a PR (If i leave the country it would be very hard for me to return and apply for PR.)

2.Working in Australia of course you would be expect a higher pay (of course higher living cost as well) and less stress compared to Malaysia (9-5 job, maybe a little later but not as late Malaysia at peak times).

3. Experience (If i return, i will never get the chance to have expose myself to the working environment in Australia)
- i want to let myself know that at least i tried.

Cons:
1. Prepared to be jobless for a few months (this might take 8 months or more).
This is because will you are waiting for PR to be granted you are eligible to work but which employee would want to invest and train you when they are not even sure if you would be granted a PR. Furthermore, employees do know that the job you got when you have not obtain is only temporary once you have gotten PR you can get a better job and off you go!

2.Prepare to work in small to medium firms, start really small.
Going to big firms especially the Big 4 would be a very big challenge and i would say only the the best of the best can get in.I am not saying small and medium firms aren't good, it is also a challenge as an international student you already have an disadvantage.

3. Cost
This might really be a con but applying for PR is not free there is a cost. I would say the money is not a matter(If PR is granted, you can probably earn back the money in a month or two), time is.

Path 2 Go back to Malaysia and work and apply offshore
Applying offshore basically means i am applying for PR it is just that i don't have to be in Australia. This application will take longer and obviously cost more.
I recently got on offer from PWC Malaysia for a position in the tax department to commence work in 2011. For those who don't know, PWC is one of the Big 4 accounting firms, means top accounting firms in the world.

Pros:
1. Getting into a Big 4!!
Of course the idea thrills me!!

2. Home
The job is base in KL. But obviously KL compared to Australia is nearer to Kuching.

3. Malaysia is a developing country
Working at a developing country you will really really get the juice of what you are doing and will be becoming part of a team that is developing a tax system for you country!

Cons:
1. Working hours
The working hours i scaring me. Official hours 9am-5pm but people usually work till midnight or if they have to overnight in the office.
The most certainly pay is not incredible (approximately $2,200)

2.KL is no difference with Australia
If you say go back to Malaysia but not Kuching then there is no difference with being in Melbourne and KL.

3.Cost
The cost of applying for offshore is far more expensive, and imagine after working 2-3 years in Malaysia, do you think you will be willing to give up your stable job and move back to Melbourne and start looking for a job again (means being jobless again and not promising to get into another Big 4)?

Path 3 - Forget PR and go KL
Similar to the above but probably will not have the chance to go back to Melbourne anymore.
If it is true that in 2019 Malaysia will go bankrupt, i will only be 30 then, too young to die with the country!


Path 4 Forget PR and go back to Kuching
Pros:
1. Family
Obviously family and friends are there. i know my mum will be very happy. And Kuching will always be the best place!

2. no worries of cooking, washing, housework
Hhahaha...i don;t need to explain.

Cons:
1.I do not want to regret that i had the chance to work in Melbourne and yet gave it up.

2. Small Kuching
Not to say Kuching is small but i think the exposure is not enough. I would really love to gain more exposure before going back.

3. not doing accounting/tax
Going back might mean i would not be exploring my own field but doing other stuff.
Something i think i would like to but not in this few years. I want to utilise what i have learn first before doing other things.


In conclusion, you can see that i cannot decide at all.
Feel free to comment on what you want to as you might see something i don't!

Worried

I am very very worried!
This is the first time in my uni exams that i am so worried.
This is the third day after auditing exam and i am still worried about that paper!

I use to worry about how i am not going to get a distinction for my papers but now i am worried that i cannot even pass the freaking paper!

I want to graduate!!!!!!
I don't want to fail!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

ANgry Post

WTF WTF WTF!!!!
I don't know if i am influnced by Aussie culture to scold but i just want to scream at the top of my lungs!!!!

WTF WTF WTF!!!!!!!!!
DAMN IT!!!

You are lucky this is my last semester because i do not look forward in working with you anymore!!!!
Not once in a MILIION!!!

You want everything to be perfect and out Fu**ing preasure on all of us!!!
It is freaking 10% and i am forgoing my time for my 2 FINAL exams coming in 2 weeks!!

Damn it Bi*c*!!!

Happy Birthday

Have you ever celebrated your grandparents birthday even when they are not around anymore?
Ever ask why you do that?
I mean what's the point when they're not even here anymore!

I have.
I never got to or remembered celebrating any birthdays with them.
But in our family, we still gather together every time on my grandparents birthdays.
To me then, it was really just another family gathering.
I never knew or even have a thought of how it felt for my father or his siblings, celebrating their parents birthday even when they are not around anymore.

Tomorrow is my father's birthday.

To me, it is a day of celebration.
On this day, all these memories will come flooding back.
Remembering how we will always try to find new ideas to surprise him (He always finds out somehow, i think the spy is Mom!).
Making cards of our own just the way he likes it!
Having a feast and most importantly the pandan birthday cake!

I honestly admit that there will tears of sorrow and joy.

Whatever we have back then will just remain there now and no new ones will come but it will be just as good and fresh as though it happened yesterday.

Every year on the 7th October, we will have a family gathering to celebrate my father's birthday.
It might not be important to my children in the future but they will understand one day.

A friend once ask me:"Why do you still use present tense when your father is no longer here?"
This is what i told him :"He is, and will always be in my heart." (Therefore, there is no past tense to that!)

Happy Birthday my Beloved Papa!

Engineering Students!

I want to especially dedicate this post to all ENGINEERING STUDENTS!!
To be more specific, engineering students who always look down on commerce students!

I really really dislike your altitude!
Why do you guys always think that commerce is a piece of cake (always indicating that commerce is for brainless ppl)?
Have you even studied it before?

Yes, we might only have 12 hours of contact hours.
Yes , we get a degree after 3 years.
and Yes, our uni fees are a lot cheaper than yours!!

Less contact hours doesn't mean we don't have to study out of that hours!
Getting a degree faster doesn't mean its an easy course!
And the price of something doesn't determine its quality!

The fact that we are all university students has already shown that we are not brainless!
and it is STUPID to think that you don't need to think to do commerce units!
If it is true, i don' t think you need commerce in uni anymore!
ANYONE CAN DO COMMERCE if you don't have to think!

Every faculty is unique in its own way.
Try asking a guy from IT to do a course in ARTS!
Try getting a medical student to do engineering!
Engineering student you come and study law yourself!

Damn it engineering students!
I am going to continue this when i have time.......

Commerce student going off to finish (if possible) her incredible long reading list on a SUNDAY!