明天就是第七天了，
到了今天，爸爸已经走了这点还是很难接受。
一切很像一场梦一样，
从医院回来的那天，
一切过的很模糊。

爸爸躺在那里，就好像每天躺在床上睡觉一样，
但是，但是躺在那得爸爸，
跟以前可爱，活泼又喜欢搞笑的爸爸不一样
是冰冷的，
是这么说他也不反抗的，
是这么叫也叫不醒的，
是再也不会骂我迟醒，
是再也不会抢我的面吃.....

走了也不说一声...
真讨厌!!!!!!!!!!!

Reflection

Aaaa!!
Its already 1.30 am here and i am still wide awake!!
something is wrong with me!!
and i wake up like at 8 something everyday...D***..
this is just not me...
if i dont get back to my normal time i'll be late for class everyday!!
anyone have any idea how to get ur body alarm back??

its in the middle of the night...and guess what??
i'm hungry...food i need food...
so boring nothing to do..

have been doing lots of reflecting on myself this week
well,i guess after more than half a year here
i have to let go of my secondary school life completely now
no more day dreaming of going back
talk to a friend about time machine once..
and he was watching documentaries then on time machines
and said it is impossible to go back into time..
i guess you are right my friend..
no point looking back..the past is what it is now..

For 1st yr here,
life wasn't as what i expected..
before i came family and friends
especially people who are older
will say enjoy your UNI life
its the 1st taste of the thing closest to freedom..

To be frank, i did not really enjoy ,my 1st year of Uni
honestly i think it sucks..
but there really is something i learn when i came here
that is not to trust and believe people so easily..
a promise is easy to make but to fulfill it is not..
u might have fulfilled your promise but others may not..
or it could also be the other way round..

For the 2nd semester for 1st yr was even worse..
i felt like i wanted to hide from the world and
just do whatever i was assigned with properly and get away
crawling back to my own little world ..
almost everything i do at school will be judged by people
disappointments seem to be lurking in every corner of my life then
i think the only time that disappointment did note really meant anything to me
was when results were out..
but it came back in a while..
when i just notice that...
so what if you got good grades..
there is just no one around who is going to celebrate with you
i think this is the reason why i have become anti social
and just want to isolate myself..
and not let anyone around me know what i am thinking or doing
maybe because i don't want myself to be disappointed again
However. i guess there are still one or two past times that i like..
beside the part where the results come out..
believe it or not..i love to conquer the law library where it become my secret spot
and just make my own notes even if it means writing till my hand hurts
sipping my coffee and just have some quite time..
but i guess there will not be another time like that..
as people already discovered my secret spot..

Although i have been here for more than half a year
i stay home or at school a lot,
the most frequently visited place besides school
are Safeway and Victoria Market..
and of course the train stations!!
so if you ask me..what is there to see in Melbourne
i really don't know how to answer you..
you will be better off going to the info center and ask.
i did try and go out and have a look what is out there
but there is just no one who either has the time or is willing to come with me..

i guess coming out here changed me..
i don't feel like the person i was before
where i could really just be happy go lucky
and forget about anything that is bothering me
and just smile on..
i am not as organize as before
and i don't have the enthusiasm to do things anymore..
it feels as if something in me died down..
and i really really become a couch potato this holiday
even an invitation to go for an outing or badminton won't even get me on my feet..
i don't really know why i have turn this way...
is it me that is changing or is this the real me?

Hopefully 2nd yr will be different...
looking forward to it..
but it seems like fear is already ahead of me leading first..
ok i really better force myself to sleep..its going to be 3 in half an hour..'
nitez!!

Trade off

Last day of freedom!!
Today is officially the last day of holiday..
no more slacking days
no more HK dramas
no more late night sleeps
no more brunch...
ooo...
sounds like i am back on schedule!!

sounds good!!
finally something to do..
but...
that is how students are
when they are holidaying
they think of getting back to class cause they are bored!!
when it is time to go back to class
they just hate it!!

i guess life is just like that..
trade off...

black friday

I smell the smell of haze..
exactly like the one back home in 1997..
terrible terrible smell..
the sky also red today..
no more blue sky..
but luckily it is still cooling..

went to Victoria market today
to buy some veggie and cook..
wahlau!!
when i went there..
i was shocked..
all the prices are double than usual!!
my favorite broccoli who use to be one of the cheaper veggies
now costs $5.00 per kg!!!
it is usually only $2.00 sometimes even $1.80..
then i thought nvm la..
don eat that eat sandwich..
so look for lettuce..
Hohoho..
$2.00 per kg....and not only that..it is already almost uneatable
D***
luckily there is still bok choy left..
at least still got something cheap n fresh to eat la..
then i go hunt for fruits lo...
aduhduh...
my banana use to be only $1.50 per kg
sometimes you can even get it for only $1.00
but now because of the flood...
it is now $4.50!!!!
the stall keeper say at least have to wait 3 months before everything become normal
cham lo cham lo...
no fruit to eat..
even grapes is $2.00 per kg and is almost rotten liaw..

i guess i will have to strave liaw..
maybe feed on porridge this few months la..
or can become cannibal also..

hahaha...but don't so upset!!
still got CAN FOOD!!!!


ok la..
enough of market..
after market i went home lo..
was waiting for the lift to come..
there were 3 of us there la..
then this aunty o..
when the lift come a..
she 1st to go in la..
then a i think she thinks she owns the lift la
cause when she go in and press her floor
she keep pressing the close button impatiently o..
me and the other guy haven't even go in..
i see liaw besong lo..
so hahah...i become devilish..
i purposely slow slow..
then press the open button for the guy to come in..
before i went in i saw 2 ppl coming in the entrance..
so i know they definitely need the lift ma..
so you know i 'hao xin' ma
wait for people ma..how can see ppl then let the lift close right
so i pressing the open button until they come lo..
whahaha...
see that aunty face ...songz man!!
wahahah!!

Well today is 13 of Friday
black friday..
but there is nothing black to me!!
Just din know what to put as title..

result

Just woke up from my afternoon nap
switch on my computer
then msn keep on sounding non-stop...
i was thinking what is happening??
must be com crazy liaw..
then went n c...
4 to 5 windows were all blinking!!
and they all had the same message..
'Result is out!!'
OMG...when i saw it..
tat is impossible result is out tomorrow not today..

then my frens call me go check..
wahlau so nervous...
when i click open the window..
almost there liaw...
my freaking computer shut down!!
D***!!
make me even more kintio..
have to wait 10 more minutes...
wah ...when waiting..
can feel my hand becoming cold..

then slowly open again..
oo...
well it was ok..
3 HD 1D..
i got into CLAYTON!!!
Bachelor of Commerce Accounting and Finance Yr 2 here i come!!!
was thinking of taking double degree...
any suggestions?